A Birthday Celebration and Frustration

Sorry I’ve been neglecting you guys. To be honest, I get kinda discouraged fast and with the lack of comments it is discouraging to me and wonder if there’s anyone really reading or if people like my blog. If you are reading and have ANY suggestions let me know!

Well let me start by saying it’s my dad’s birthday today! We went out for breakfast this morning and I ordered a veggie egg white omlet with tomatoes and dry wheat toast on the side. It was delicious. However, I hate going out to breakfast. It’s probably the meal I hate most to go out for because I like to make my own breakfast and add as much PB and banans as I want! 😉 A couple hours later I was hungry again and ate my shakeology.

Then I decided to make a bake. I’ve been wanting to bake for sometime now and just decided to today. I made orange walnut brownies.

They were delicious and soo moist! Great for a sweet tooth!

I decided then to go walk the dog and play with Howie all day long! Boy! He’s tiring! I wish I had all that energy! Then it was time for dinner! My dad wanted gyros. I don’t eat those so I ordered a greek salad. Sorry for the lack of pictures I just always forget about them!

Then it was time to sing Happy Birthday! The old man is 54 this year!

We had cheesecake for his birthday with apple and cherry toppings! I put apple topping on mine and now I’m stuffed and feeling a little guilty not gonna lie. I have vacation coming up in July and not gonna lie, I’m scared to look at myself in a swimsuit! :O

It’s like I went from never allowing myself to eat anything to now thinking ” I can have it because I need to up my calorie intake anyways” and I think also to prove to myself that I’m not restricting. This ED thing is soo complicated I swear. Why can’t I just be normal about food?! UGH!

Have you ever had these same thoughts before?