A Birthday Celebration and Frustration

Sorry I’ve been neglecting you guys. To be honest, I get kinda discouraged fast and with the lack of comments it is discouraging to me and wonder if there’s anyone really reading or if people like my blog. If you are reading and have ANY suggestions let me know!

Well let me start by saying it’s my dad’s birthday today! We went out for breakfast this morning and I ordered a veggie egg white omlet with tomatoes and dry wheat toast on the side. It was delicious. However, I hate going out to breakfast. It’s probably the meal I hate most to go out for because I like to make my own breakfast and add as much PB and banans as I want! 😉 A couple hours later I was hungry again and ate my shakeology.

Then I decided to make a bake. I’ve been wanting to bake for sometime now and just decided to today. I made orange walnut brownies.

They were delicious and soo moist! Great for a sweet tooth!

I decided then to go walk the dog and play with Howie all day long! Boy! He’s tiring! I wish I had all that energy! Then it was time for dinner! My dad wanted gyros. I don’t eat those so I ordered a greek salad. Sorry for the lack of pictures I just always forget about them!

Then it was time to sing Happy Birthday! The old man is 54 this year!

We had cheesecake for his birthday with apple and cherry toppings! I put apple topping on mine and now I’m stuffed and feeling a little guilty not gonna lie. I have vacation coming up in July and not gonna lie, I’m scared to look at myself in a swimsuit! :O

It’s like I went from never allowing myself to eat anything to now thinking ” I can have it because I need to up my calorie intake anyways” and I think also to prove to myself that I’m not restricting. This ED thing is soo complicated I swear. Why can’t I just be normal about food?! UGH!

Have you ever had these same thoughts before?

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Picture overload

Sorry I didn’t post again last night. We got back a little later than expected and I was exhausted! So let me tell you a little about my day. I watched Howie till the afternoon. Then my friend Laurie (the girl I’m moving in with this August) came over and we caught up. Since I haven’t been home since March I really missed shopping, so we decided to go to Target! One of my favorite stores! I bought a few things that I wanted and only one that I needed. ha. Figures.

For a snack before we left. I ate a thinkthin bar. I know I said I was going to do the cleanse but I figured I couldn’t do it this weekend because I forgot I had a few things going on.

Now, I’ll show you a few things I bought.

I bought this cute dress for a wedding that Kyle and I have to attend in September. I couldn’t pass it up! It was only 25 bucks!

Next, I bought some new sandals because I saw my sister had bought some and I thought they were so cute so I had to get them!

Of course I had to get them in two colors! 😉

Laurie got hungry, and I was craving Panera since I haven’t been able to have it! So we went. She ordered the turkey artichoke panini. And I of course ordered a salad. I ordered the Meditteranean Salmon salad. I love this salad. Ever since it came out, whenever I go there I order this with a slice of whole grain bread on the side.

I ate it all! I was soo hungry yesterday for some reason.

After our shopping and lunch date I headed home to get ready real quick to go to Costco. We arrived at Costco and realized it closed at 6, so we only had an hour to grocery shop! I kicked into high gear and grabbed everything I needed! For some reason the time crunch gave me a little anxiety that I wasn’t going to be able to get everything I wanted or I would forget something. Well, turns out I got everything I needed and more! 🙂

So here’s what we bought…this isn’t everything, but it’s most of it. I was too tired last night when we bought it all so I took a lot of things out of the fridge and did it that way! haha

After we left Costco we headed to Longhorn Steakhouse and waited a half hour before we were seated. We sat down and right away knew what we wanted. I ordered the chicken strawberry salad with a side of sweet potato because I freaking love roasted sweet potatoes at places. This salad was soo good. It came with fresh fruit, feta cheese, candied pecans, grilled chicken, and a raspberry vinagerette. I ordered it with no pecans because since they were candied I knew I wouldn’t eat them.

Sorry no picture, then we stopped at kohl’s and this happened…

So cute! Our last stop was culvers! I ordered a small concrete vanilla mixer with strawberries and bananas. They ended up not having bananas…I was soo mad. So the girl gave me a medium instead with extra strawberries and I thought since I didn’t get my pecans at dinner I’ll have them right now…So she added pecans as well. Can you say stuffed like a turkey?! That I was…almost uncomfortablly full actually. yuck. so today I started with coffee and lemon water! Lemon water is great for detox!

I’ll be having wheat toast with peanut butter and bananas for breakfast. Picture to come.
Now, to get the day started. I have a long day ahead of me! Walking the dog after breakfast and then getting ready for a graduation party in the city…should be fun! 🙂

School is Out!

Today was the last day of school for me till the end of May when I’m gonna take some summer classes. However, I’ll be staying here in Charleston a little longer than I’d like to. I won’t get to leave for a few days, but my boyfriend is leaving tomorow! 😦 Oh well. I guess I will get a little me time. I just have an issue being alone. I don’t like it. Probably because I feel the need to jump into old habits when I’m alone, and the thought of jumping back into those habits scares the hell out of me. 

I feel like I’ve progressed a lot more with my eating disorder since last year, but I’m having trouble recognizing if I’ve progressed or just brushed it off to the side… Through this whole process of becoming “normal” again about eating I’ve learned a lot. I’ve learned just how much an eating disorder can effect the mind and body and other people for that matter. I realized that through my disorder I have pushed a lot of people away, especially the closest ones. Thankfully, they understand now and have accepted me back into their lives. I remember lying to my friends just so I wouldn’t have to be be “tempted” by all the bad foods. 

Nevertheless, I’m happer where I am in my life today than a year ago. I feel like I’m actually living again, because for a while there I felt as though my life was passing me by. So I just started rambling and forgot to introduce myself. Again. My name is Sara Fiorenzo. I’m from the south suburbs of Chicago, IL. I attend EIU and have the best boyfriend ever. His name is Kyle and I’m sure he will be a star on my blog. I”m studying Kineisiology and Exercise Science. I currently have my own apartment but am moving back home for the summer. I’m in a sorority, tri delta! 🙂

That’s about it! If you wanna know anything else just ask! 

As always, thanks for listening to my nonesense! Hope you have the best Wednesday ever!