Neglection and Happy Anniversary to Us

Sorry. I’ve been an packing/unpacking maniac. Everything is unpacked and in place now! Finally. So let’s see the day I left for Charleston was really uneventful. It took five hours to pack up my place and get everything into storage and the car packed! Then, we were off to go back home. It was dinner time, so we stopped and ate at this Amish Buffet. It was good. But, honestly I felt like I was in a nursing home and wanted to go ASAP. I got the salad/soup bar. There were a bit more salads than most places, but I didn’t eat anything I haven’t already tasted previously. I’m not very adventurous when it comes to new places we try!

Saturday I literally spent the whole day unpacking and cleaning my room! It was a disaster. Then yesterday, we celebrated my dad’s birthday again, but this time with my grandparents. It was nice. My mom made a huge turkey dinner. Sorry no pictures. I always forget.

**sidenote- Sometimes I think I forget because subconsciously I don’t want people to think I’m still obsessed with food/ calories/ portions/ fat.

Anyways the food was delicious but also the company. I haven’t really talked to my grandparents since I’ve been home, so it was really nice to catch up with them. My grandpa has parkansis and it’s getting worse. It’s hard to see him like that. Now, it’s harder and harder for him to walk and my grandma is soo sad to see her husband like that.

But on a brighter note, it’s Kyle and I’s one year anniversary offically completely on. We dated all through out high school on and off, but only a few months at a time. Yayy us! 😀 Our plan today is to go on a picnic after he gets off work! I’ll take pictures let you guys know how great it was.

Also on the agenda is a doctor’s appt. for me. I hurt my wrist a few months ago and it’s gotten considerably worse. I’m hoping for the best! I don’t want to have to stop working out or lifting weights!

Sorry for such a boring and written post.

Hope you guys have a beautiful and bright day! 😀


A Birthday Celebration and Frustration

Sorry I’ve been neglecting you guys. To be honest, I get kinda discouraged fast and with the lack of comments it is discouraging to me and wonder if there’s anyone really reading or if people like my blog. If you are reading and have ANY suggestions let me know!

Well let me start by saying it’s my dad’s birthday today! We went out for breakfast this morning and I ordered a veggie egg white omlet with tomatoes and dry wheat toast on the side. It was delicious. However, I hate going out to breakfast. It’s probably the meal I hate most to go out for because I like to make my own breakfast and add as much PB and banans as I want! 😉 A couple hours later I was hungry again and ate my shakeology.

Then I decided to make a bake. I’ve been wanting to bake for sometime now and just decided to today. I made orange walnut brownies.

They were delicious and soo moist! Great for a sweet tooth!

I decided then to go walk the dog and play with Howie all day long! Boy! He’s tiring! I wish I had all that energy! Then it was time for dinner! My dad wanted gyros. I don’t eat those so I ordered a greek salad. Sorry for the lack of pictures I just always forget about them!

Then it was time to sing Happy Birthday! The old man is 54 this year!

We had cheesecake for his birthday with apple and cherry toppings! I put apple topping on mine and now I’m stuffed and feeling a little guilty not gonna lie. I have vacation coming up in July and not gonna lie, I’m scared to look at myself in a swimsuit! :O

It’s like I went from never allowing myself to eat anything to now thinking ” I can have it because I need to up my calorie intake anyways” and I think also to prove to myself that I’m not restricting. This ED thing is soo complicated I swear. Why can’t I just be normal about food?! UGH!

Have you ever had these same thoughts before?

Post Mother’s Day

Hey you guys!

I wanted to share a few things with you! First of all Happy Belated Mother’s Day! Sorry no post yesterday! I was trying to post from my phone, but it wasn’t working! I have a confession to make! I have eaten ice cream the last two nights! :/ And last night I went wayyyy over board with the sweets but let me show you what they were:

This was the MOST DELICIOUS thing I’ve ever tasted in my life! No seriously though, this was amazing! It was homemade cherry cheesecake made by my Auntie Carol. Amazing. Next I had a piece of this…

This was a cinnamon crumb bunt cake. Yes, my aunt put a flower in the middle like My Big Fat Greek Wedding, because my whole family loves that movie! We quote it alll the time! 😀 I’m not crazy about bunt cake though, so I had a veryyyy small peice! Then there were also frosted brownies, apple slices, and rice krispies. I couldn’t control myself yesterday so I had a brownie, TWO rice krispies ( a chocolate and vanilla), piece of cheesecake, and that piece of bunt cake. Okay I know right? What was I thinking?
ugh! Okay, then my sister drove me home after our family party and Kyle calls me. He asks if I want to go to Zarlengo’s ( one of my favorite ice cream places) because all of our friends are going up there. So I go. And I ordered something…I couldn’t resist! I would have been the only one not eating ice cream and I didn’t want to feel like the old days where I was always the one not eating. So I ordered a small gelato with a scoop of tiramisu and chocolate espresso. Tiramusu was my favorite. I wish I would have gotten all tiramisu.

Well, as you can guess this morning I woke up feeling bad and FAT. I know, I hate that word too. I decided to go to the gym this morning! Best idea ever! I’m sooo happy I went! All my old friends from the gym were still there and sooo happy to see me as I was them! I got in a good workout too! 750 calories burned! Yeahhh buddy! I went home and quickly made a chocolate shakeology with a banana. I was starving because I skipped out on breakfast. Again, because I felt FAT.

As I reflect on this morning and my own thoughts, I can’t tell if I’m really trying to eat better or if my ED is coming back and I’m trying to restrict again. Only time will tell, but I’m gonna do my best to NOT restrict!

Hope you guys all have the best intuitive eating day ever! 😀